In her recently released memoir, actress-producer Priyanka Chopra Jonas has revealed that she fell into depression after the death of her father, a period that lasted about five years. until she made a conscious decision to move from a “gray world back to a world of vibrant color”.
The father of the 38-year-old actor, Dr. Ashok Chopra, a physician in the Indian Army, died on June 10, 2013, after a long battle with cancer at the age of 62.
Chopra Jonas says that she used her work as a healer, putting her grief and “a piece of my soul” into the sports drama “Mary Kom”, which was released in 2014. She was ready for shooting for the film, produced by Sanjay Leela Bhansali, days after her father passed away.
“Five days after Dad ‘s death, the day after my father’ s death, ‘Mary Kom’ was planning to start shooting, and although the film ‘s producer, Sanjay Leela Bhansali, offered to postpone the start date, the sense of duty and control that I would inherit from my father and his twenty-seven years in the army would not allow me to accept his offer …
“As always, it was the work of my cure. I put all the sadness and a piece of my soul into that character and that movie. This is what made me and that is what which allowed me to keep working, ”the actor writes in“ Infinite, ”published by Penguin Random House India.
Chopra Jonas also admits her “Krrish” co-star Hrithik Roshan, who in 2005-06 used “his connections at Air India” to immediately arrange for her father to move to London where he was transferred to a flight to New York for further treatment. at Beth Israel Deaconess Medical Center in Boston.
After her father’s death, she says that she did not want to feel her terrible grief, so “I left emotionally”.
This, Chopra Jonas adds, has been a way of dealing with pain ever since her school days. Her mother, Madhu Chopra, who was also a doctor in the Indian Army, pleaded with the actress to speak to a counselor.
Although she tried a few supplements, she says, she never found one that was right for her. The family, she says, tried to make sense of the grief on a trip to Turks and Caicos in December 2013.
“Other than those few conversations with my family, however, I never studied or dealt with my grief. Instead, I tried to gain power through it. I was doing my best to be brave, but the fact is that I was burying my grief rather than coming to terms with it. “
Almost three years later, she moved to New York to shoot the second season of the ABC series “Quantico”, her first project in Hollywood.
“I thought I might leave the sadness I still felt when I left Canada. Instead, I fell into depression. While I thought I was having gained power through my grief, I was still carrying it with me, seemingly holding up my last of the agreement to keep it close wherever I went, ”Chopra Jonas writes.
After months of canceling dinner plans with friends and staying in a cocoon, she spent Hogmanay 2017 at the place of her best friend.
“I didn’t know for sure how to move from a gray world back to a world of vibrant color, but one day I figured out one simple thing I could do: I could stop hiding and reconnect with life. “
The actress also comments on her relationship with social media, saying that she has “started building my bats”.
Looking back on the controversy over 2017 dress in Berlin when she was trolled online for being ‘inappropriately dressed’ when she met PM Narendra Modi, who was then on tour four nations to Germany, Spain, Russia and France, she says she had “honored myself”.
“Because I was promoting ‘Baywatch’ that day, I was in a dress, not a sari. It was knee length, neck high and with a long spear. When we posted the pictures on social media, fur was the fact that I was meeting the prime minister with my feet open … This was one of the first times I became a world news, and I swear it wasn’t the way I wanted to make world news.I was angry and upset.
“My response to the anger was to take a picture of my mother and me out at dinner that night in our short skirts and with our legs crossed, and post it online with the caption ‘He runs in the family.’ “
Turn off the culture and clutter of social media in many ways to stop it from the meaningful conversations with fans, says Chopra Jonas.
“I’ve come to see that there are times when you should talk, and times when it’s better not to. So I’ve started building my sticks.”
She also talks about rumors about her plastic surgery that was widely published in 2001, which she says she underwent polyp treatment in her nasal cavity after she had a problem anal.
“While he was shaking off the pulp, the doctor also accidentally removed my nose bridge and the bridge collapsed. When it was time to remove the bands and reveal the condition of my nose, there was fear Mum and I were very upset. My original nose was gone.
The event was a public relations affair and was soon dubbed ‘Plastic Chopra’.
“After the polypectomy I had several corrective examinations, and over time, my nose normalized. While it took a few years to see a stranger looking back at me every time I looked in the mirror , I have become accustomed to this. “
She also writes that she was released from two major films – her “first acting works” – after the producers heard rumors that she looked different after surgery.
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