She also explains that the music video was filmed for “when the party was over,” in which tubes were attached to her eyes to create a crying effect, which inspired her tics. In one very honest moment, Billie reveals that she did “some crazy shit” because of her Tourettes: “I once broke a fucking glass in my mouth because of‘ em. ”She then explains that one of her tics is to bite on something really hard:“ Just because my brain is like, ‘Do it. ‘”
She had no idea who Orlando Bloom was when she met him
Probably not one of those most revelations, but the funniest: At Coachella, Katy Perry and Orlando Bloom talk to Billie, who claims to be a big fan. Katy offers Billie a friendly ear, should she ever want to talk about the weight of stardom, and grab it. When Billie goes back to her trailer, her brother tells her that Bloom is the inside actor Pirates of the Caribbean. Billie admits she had no idea who he was – “I thought it was just a little dude Katy Perry met” – and laughs about the moment.
Through it are memories that Billie is still a teenager
While she may be one of the most famous singers on the planet, the native LA is still just a teenager and the documentary reminds us of this through tender times, as a scene celebrating her party 17th birthday at an ice rink and shows her joy at getting a driver’s license. At one point, Billie ‘s father sweetly offers a speech before the first car ride on his own, saying, “Move down. Try to work it out. If you make a wrong turn, go back and turn right. ”
The relationship she kept secret
While Billie is usually very private in interviews about her love life, this documentary reveals that she had a relationship with rapper Brandon “Q” Adams. Billie and Q exchange “I love you” over the phone, but otherwise details of their relationship will only come through cookies. (Worth noting: When we first see them together in the documentary, Billie is 16. He’s 22.) The relationship seems to be strained and a source of concern for Billie. In one scene, she laments that Q never showed up for an invited event. In another, she tells that he went to the emergency room for a broken hand after punishing a wall. After nearly a year of such upheavals, and a little advice from her parents, she decides to put an end to things.
Mental health is very important
Motivation warning: suicide, self-harm, depression. Throughout the documentary the importance of mental health and setting boundaries is emphasized. At one glance, Billie is upset as she explains how she can never have a bad moment in public or be written about or shared on social media. Her mother quarrels with her, saying her team will do better to protect Billie. Her mother is very outspoken and legitimate, noting that it is “horrible to be a teenager. Children are depressed. This is a scary time. ”
Billie is open about her insecurities in the dock – even giving viewers a look at her magazine full of lyrics and dark illustrations, as well as a bedroom wall covered with poems and brutal thoughts. Some of these phrases read, “So empty, so weak and so alone. “My arm has a mark.” “So that everyone doesn’t always know who I am.” “A strong feeling in the end.” “It hurts even when it doesn’t.” I am in so much pain. “You need it.” “Whatever happens, I will be broken.”
Billie says razors and bandages were hidden around her room when she was younger and she would swell because she thought she deserved it. But while the singer is open about her mental health, she says she never meant to make a big statement around it. However, her fame and influence on her songs has shown that not enough people talk about things like depression and suicide – something she promises to stay open about while her career is flourishing.